It Can Be Formed of Therapy

 

When I deeply fell into the hip hop music I was in a stage where my parents were fraud by my own uncle..at that point he was threatened my family, saying that he could do anything worst to my family.

I was fell into the deep hole, I could not sleep the whole night, and the gastric that I got keep coming up on me. I listened to a lot of songs like Eminem-Not Afraid, MINO-Fear, and Fort Minor-Where’d You Go a lot at that time because it is the most humane song that I have ever heard of. But before everything I used to be doing great back in foundation school GPA with distinction, fast forward I took interior designed and I failed.. I struggle a lot to find my feet again so I change my major to International Business, right now I am worry so much about my future 🙂

I could say that I am depressed but no one would believe that, they think that I am fine but I am not..and I just want to say it is okay to be not okay..as long as you stay strong 🙂

“And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today
I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, I’mma face my demons
I’m manning up, I’mma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now (now)” – Eminem Not Afraid  those words honestly helping me going through all of this even the song Stronger Than I Was, I made that into stop motion. Not Afraid was made up after Eminem coming out from the rehab, for me my rehab may not be the same of him but I can relate to it 🙂 like facing my failure, the monster of failing, and scared about my future.

The song Stronger Than I Was, was relatable to me because the part “You used to say, that I never be, nothing without you, and I believe” thats the words that people said to me most of the time, and I know that I’m not that smart, not that pretty, not even perfect..And I knew that I’m going to be ever on the same page with other people..and if someone asked me do you want to be “normal”, my answer is definitely..I want since all the girls at my age loving the same things, stuffs, and they are not cold as me 😦

I feel like I really have a sober point of life but thanks to my family they try to put me up together. But to be honest since from the very beginning I love the song by Pharell Williams- HAPPY. There is this amazing therapy place called Hip Hop Psych, they will make the patient write rap lyrics I really want to try that

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don’t hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I’ll be just fine, yeah,
No offence to you, don’t waste your time. – HAPPY PHARELL WILLIAMS

“Hip-hop in general, and rap in particular, often carry messages that are much more complex than is generally appreciated,” added Inkster. – via the guardian
 Even the song by Logic – 1-800-273-8255 ft. Alessia Cara, Khalid that talked about suicide, and depression..

The song that goes by ;

“I been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
Who can relate? … I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don’t gotta die today
You don’t gotta die
I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don’t gotta die
Now lemme tell you why” – Logic 1-800-273-8255 – So it’s like telling the other listeners to give them a hope that they should live no matter what 🙂

There is another program in the United States called Beats Rhymes and Life the programs letting the youth people said what their true feelings 🙂 the program owned by Tomás Alvarez, and through that 1,000 young people found hope through that 🙂 and Tomás does understood that not every song of hip hop contained misogynistic lyrics, or sex 🙂 I love people understand the context of being loving the song, and culture rather than people who listen to it to look like I’m a cool dude/chick

When Geraldo Rivera: Hip-Hop Has Done More Damage To Black People Than Racism, its so sad very dissapointing, but Kendrick Lamar killed it with DNA 🙂

The reason for me why they are very relatable to me is because they kind of giving me hope that life is not easy, you need to face obstacle in life no matter how much you try :), most of the rappers coming from though background of family drug abused, they got to see their family member, friends got killed from the gun shooting or the gang related, but they got through it. Even people like KOHH whose father was killed himself, his mother was a drug user, raised by his grandmother are able to make me feel like my life is precious 🙂

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